This is one of those mommy rants that doesn't make a lot of sense in the here and now but in 20 years will hopefully make me smile and remember what life was like when they were little and Ben and I were lost in the throws of parenthood.....
This month a Natalie's alter ego has not left her side. She visits from time to time and each time she does I am overwhelmed with motherhood failure! Ugggh it is the WORST feeling to feel like you are failing the single most important thing in life - raising a person....I know the alter ego will leave soon, with out a good bye or any fanfare but in the midst of it, I feel like I am in battle with a newly turned 6 year old! Each night when I go to bed I formulate my strategy for the next day...here are some affirmations I need to recite when I feel like I am failing in every way!
1. I make my kids breakfast everyday! I actually cook most mornings...cereal is a rarity and a treat! What prison inmate can say their mom cooked breakfast 9 out of 10 mornings....
2. I NEVER let my kids wear clothes that are missing buttons or underware or socks with holes. What CEO, or at least a Nordstorm personnel shopper would go to work with such sloppiness?
3. I pack an exciting lunch full of healthy delicious food everyday unless the kids are sooo excited about the lunch offering that we celebrate and they get to "buy" lunch.
4. I pick them up everyday with as smile, either from their classroom, or right in the loop after school.
5. Dinner is on the table at 5:30 consistently. I cook different things and family favorites and include the girls in my cooking regularly. They don't eat much but are not really what I would call "picky".
6. We eat as a family!
7. Almost EVERY night there is bathtime and book time! Sometimes reading over 100 pages a night! These girls are book fanatics! I dream of them becoming a librarian.
8. They get to celebrate their birthday's with amazing parties and homemade cakes.
9. They get to camp, fly, boat, hike, swim, craft, bike, often.
10. They get to choose any activity, soccer, softball, dance, gymnastics, swim team, etc. they would like to attempt.
11. I make homemade Halloween costumes, help with school projects, sit down for homework, chaperone field trips, host playdates, plan summer fun, lead girl scout troops, and join mommy and me groups.
12. I censor what TV is watched, movies shown, and websites visited.
I hope this helps....and why oh why did I think the baby stage was so much work? I'd take a baby any day! Ooops was that a slip???